24 September 2010

poof

because quite frankly that is what it feels like - 


poof... 


yesterday we met with the doctors who said my aunt needed to be placed on hospice in the hospital... they gave her days to weeks... 


stopped by the hospital after dropping the kids off at school this morning, held the phone to her ear so my brother could say what he needed to say... i thanked her for all she had done and let her know i was going to be okay... 


my mom and i left - i headed off to philly with em...


and when i got home, my mom let me know that she left that disease-riddled, pain-filled body of hers at 9am...  


the aggressiveness of her disease and the rapidity of her decline have left me reeling... a mother and her daughter both died this year - my grandmother and my aunt... 


i finished these for my friend to wear to the kaleidoscope of hope walk tomorrow - she lost her sister to cancer 2 years ago... i added sapphires for september - to represent the month of my friend's birth and her sister's passing - bitter sweet... 


who knew those words would apply to my aunt this month - the month of her birth and her passing?


thank you for letting me share this - it all just seemed so surreal... and thank you for all of your support... i am here for you as well -


tomorrow is another day -

23 comments:

  1. Sending well wishes and hugs your way...

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  2. My heart weeps for your loss… I am thankful that she did not have an extended time in the hospital dealing with all that "stuff" that goes on with being so sick there. I think once they know… really know… that you are going to be ok, their spirit lets go and their journey continues into whatever comes next… What wonderful women you have had in your life to be this amazing person you are… Silent prayers of thanks are being sent… And hugs to you and your family during this difficult time...

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  3. MJ, I am so sorry. When these things come so quickly we have so little time to prepare ourselves for the passing. But the other side is that lingering without hope is a desolate place to be. It makes me happy that you have been able to be with your auntie through this time. It takes time, but you will look back on it as a good place to have been. I have you and your family in my heart and meditations. Big hugs.

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  4. I am so terribly sorry to hear of your Aunts passing. You are never prepared no matter if you have a day or a year.

    “Love is stronger than death even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death.”

    Thinking of you and your family....

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  5. I am so sorry for your loss, thinking of you and your family.

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  6. I am sorry for your loss. It is going to feel surreal, but know that as time goes by your memories of her and your Grandmother will make you smile and keep them alive.

    If you have children, I understand you will often see your passed loved ones in them as well.

    For her to let go so quickly means she was at peace knowing those she cared for were going to be okay.

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  7. i am soo very sorry to hear the sad news about your aunt..i can't begin to imagine what you must be feeling right now..stunned at the very least.
    my thoughts and prayers are with you.

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  8. I'm sorry. I know what it feels like when it's so sudden, sharp and unexpected (even when you know it's lurking), and I know there's nothing to say, really, that helps. Just the acknowledgement can be enough, sometimes. So, let your thoughts drift back in time, remember and try to smile....

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  9. Mary Jane - you are constantly in my thoughts. Big, big hugs.

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  10. oh tears...but so so grateful you had your goodbye...

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  11. I´m so sorry for you and your family. You´re in my prayers.

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  12. Wow, it feels fast from my vantage point... I can;'t imagine the speed of your aunt's passing from yours. Healing blessings to you as you navigate the sea of grief.

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  13. I am so sorry Maire for your loss. Holding you in my prayers.

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  14. Oh Mary Jane, my heart aches for you. But I'm sure you're taking some small comfort in the fact that she is no longer in pain, and is at peace. Loss is so difficult, and know that I'm sending you some healing hugs over the internet.

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  15. I am very sorry to hear this. My heart hurts for you and your family. You are in my prayers.

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  16. Your loss has left me feeling such empathy for you dear friend. I am so sorry -

    Life is way too short - the older we get - the ore we realize that. What a wonderful gesture of you to make those earrings - they are lovely - a very nice remembrance for your friend. You are so very gracious.

    Hugs,
    Vicki

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  17. mary jane, you have my deepest condolences, i am so sorry that you've lost a dear member of your family. life is truly fleeting at best.
    the earring you've made for your friend are a beautiful labor of love.
    wishing you peace...
    xo
    L

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  18. many blessings mary jane. It must be quite unraveling. I can't believe how fast it all happens. I wish you lots of love right now. xoxo Beth

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  19. I'm so sorry to hear of your aunt's passing. Please accept my sincerest sympathies.

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  20. Mary Jane, I am so saddened to hear of your huge loss. "Poof" really describes it perfectly...here one day and gone the next, we are so suddenly reminded. And the timing of Mother and daughter both in the same year... I am just so sorry.

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  21. I'm really, really sorry. (And I'm so sorry I've been tardy on catching up with blogs so I missed this immediately. I hope you know my heart is out to you and I'm thinking of you. Much love.

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